I haven't been blogging.
And I haven't even been instagramming (gasp).
I know, I know. What has my world come to?
Truth be told, I've been exhausted. I had flu-like symptoms piling up over the last week that finally reached the off to the Doctor I go status.
Sure enough, the verdict was a lovely case of a virus.
And guys, I wish that the flu was the only source of my exhaustion. But truth be told, it's not.
I stumbled this week, guys.
One too many things piled up and lead to me getting overwhelmed. And I thought God was where I run to when I'm overwhelmed, but this week showed me that that's not always the case.
This week showed me that I have some deeply ingrained habits, places where I'm still fighting on my own two feet and not letting God in.
And so, this week has been exhausting. Overwhelming. Tiring.
I looked at myself and said I can't do this anymore. This fight. It's too much.
Because the Christian walk isn't just a walk. It's a fight. It's fighting for what's right in a world that glorifies what's wrong.
And this week, that fight was too much for me. This week, I wanted to take the easy route.
Heck, this week, I did take the easy route. And I thought to myself, I just can't do this anymore.
But right as those words came into my mind, I picked up my journal.
I wrote it down: I can't do this anymore.
And the next word I wrote down: LIE.
For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength. (Phil 4:13)
And that's about all I've got for today.