That would be my high school boyfriend. We dated for two years, so you know, it was the real thing. Duh.
Anywho, things didn't quite go as planned, clearly.
Don't get me wrong, I am so so happy with where my life is at right now. I consider it a blessing to be able to spend these years of my life on me, doing whatever I want, whenever I want. I know the time where it's okay to be a little selfish now and then will fly out the window soon enough, so I'm embracing it for now.
But with that disclaimer made, I'm gonna be real on this little blog of mine. I'm gonna let you in on a little secret.
Sometimes, it scares me that I have no idea who I'm gonna end up with.
Scares me a lot.
Some of my closest friends are on the road to engagement/moving in together, and me? Far from it.
That freaks me out.
When my boyfriend and I broke up a few months ago, the first thing I thought was well, shit. Now who am I going to move in with when everyone else gets to that stage?
Actually, if I'm being real, the first thing I said was Ugh I just made a blog header with you in it. Now I have to change that.
Can we all say it together, that relationship was not meant to last.
But regardless, it's kind of scary getting back in that single boat. We're supposed to be getting closer to marriage and I feel like I just took 5 steps back. And that's scary.
So now that I let it slip that life is not all rainbows and butterflies, let's get back to the good stuff. Even with the feeling of being wayy behind where I thought I would be at this point in life, I'm really really happy right now. So if being a little scared of the future every now and then comes with that, then I guess I'm okay with that.
For now, I'm enjoying the little things.
|Like bike riding through gorgeous Santa Barbara|
|And date nights with my best friend|
I'll say it one more time, life is so so good right now. I really wouldn't change a thing.